____Step Out On It____

Word To Wale, "New Love Is Beautiful--It's The Timing That's Ugly"

I fought the past for so long, it had my vision so fuzzy

I'm beautiful, inside & out, but my flaws still bugged me

Could an individual see past all the mess & yet they still love me??

Polo stained with dirt, from the past heart break that notoriously drug me

Hands covered my face, but the dust still touched me

My Heart; Heavily Sedated

My Time; So Preciously Wasted
Delusional, some would say..but my emotions were all faded

Refrained from bitterness, but my ways almost strayed & became jaded

Baddest Suede Pumps in the game...stained for life from the tears & pain that fell upon them
Outsiders looked in, all they seen was a Pretty Picture--Nice Frame..

Although internally, I felt confused & condemned--but I KEPT a smile, no details for them.. 

I even cried out to God..

Lord Please Deliver Me From Bee

Grant Me A New Perspective, Toss Down A Hint Of Serenity

From Fear, Break The Shackles--I Want To Be FREE

Scared to look forward, because I was steadily looking into the rearview

So, to a cliff I had driven, without even noticing

Burning eyes, stained face, shirt, shoes and all..
Without the slightest expectations in mind

All I knew was that it felt like the worst timing--just ugly

Never knew the end would become a beautiful beginning..

Who would've fathomed that I was in such a rush for dust

Yet I still ended up WINNING

8 feet away from the edge, I sat in silence

As I Decided What My Next Move Would Be

The next move had to be the best move. Point of no return. No looking back. If I choose you, I can't lose.

Anxious, nervous, plus all of the above..but before I lept

A voice whispered so kindly, so gentle--so meek

"Preparation Is Everything...", my conscious spoke out to me

Synced & Agreed..But

It all happened so fast..so hazardously, I was blasting from the Past to a harmonious Present state

Feeling like I'm on another planet, lets call it MarRs, with two R's... :-)
Courage has increased, it's too large, invincible--I'll call it fate
Within a blink, fear bounced back, it failed to penetrate

Embarking into the unknown, my Future is near

Smiling eyes, fretful heart, but..I'm ready--le' go.

I'd Rather Leap Out In Preparation & Faith, Than To Stand Still In Fear...

Dedicated to Someone Special...but most importantly--its to all of my folks living in fear, be bold and take that leap. Just do it all in faith, works & preparation. I doubt that you'll fall, but if you did..you'd land on both feet, knowing you tried.

copyright © 2011 Sheena Benson